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Dear Guests, Welcome to my blog which I treat like a creative garden where I regularly plant and change this and that be it poetry, philosophy, an Oboe Brilliance lesson, an essay of some kind, or a journal about composing. Visit every Monday for oboe coaching which is also helpful for many melodic instrumentalists. Musically yours, Kathryn
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"How do you compose?" That is the most commonly asked question I hear.
This blog is a window into my creative process and philosophies as a composer and instrumentalist. At times it may contain music, photos, and poetry as well. May you enjoy, return, and benefit!  |
Lately, as in the past three years, I've been going through significant internal and external changes, but now even more so. This is both challenging and liberating. It's certainly all consuming and being reflected in the music I create.
This weekend I have uploaded three new pieces on this site. 1) Untitled 2) A rose for compassion 3) Little girl big world - which is not on the home page "Untitled" is a new realm chapter in music making for me. I didn't hear it before hand in the "radio of my head", nor did I start with an idea. It seems to be more of a self portrait of my internal psychology as I sift my consciousness through my shadow. It's like being a vampire learning to look in the mirror to see my own reflections instead of projecting it out onto others. (within reason of course! - human that I am!)Here, I am moving through murky dream scapes and internal realms as I grope through the fog sensing dawn and first rays of sun. "A rose for compassion" This piece was first created with the inspiration of the story of the little mermaid, but I didn't title it that because the music doesn't fit the story which is full of transformation and difficulty. If you listen to it with that understanding of inspiration, you may hear very watery, other worldy sounds, feminine movement in an ocean like emotional world. Because the emotional content is pleasant as well as deep and fluid, it feels compassionate to me. During this time in creating this piece and in life, compassion is a big issue for me now as I work diligently towards being more compassionate with myself and some of the major and minor characters in my personal life story. Also, I've been thinking a lot about the rights and well being of sea creatures like whales and dolphins, as well as the rights of consenting same sex adult couples in love who deserve the freedom and respect to live their lives with full legal rights and protection as well as appreciation for their unique beautfy which is a gift to all humanity. Right now in my life transition, I am excited to be moving out of my temporary apartment and into a home with the love of my life who is a man. As a bisexual person by my true nature, my life partner could just as easiy been a woman and so I am sensitive to rights, cultural intolerance, and fewer opportunities that would be denied me if my love were a woman and not a man. Rather than appear to be or pass as a heterosexual, I prefer to speak out to the world on behalf of the benefit we all share when we are compassionate and supportive to loving relationships. "Little girl big world" started out as "Christian woman in an industrial military complex"! This piece depicts a feminine character as preferred by religious programing that subjugates the powerful destructive side, bold side, wilfull side, feminine force field side of girlhood, and juxtiposes it with a ravaged world due to the subjugation of the femine caused by male dominance. I portray the imbalance on the one hand. I also turn it into a dance to illuminate the lovely aspects of girlishness in contrast to a dying planet and jazzy techno culture. My feelings are to make the most of it as best we can! Here we are so dance on the stage your feet happen to be. Musically yours, Kathryn |
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