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Dear Guests, Welcome to my blog which I treat like a creative garden where I regularly plant and change this and that be it poetry, philosophy, an Oboe Brilliance lesson, an essay of some kind, or a journal about composing. Visit every Monday for oboe coaching which is also helpful for many melodic instrumentalists. Musically yours, Kathryn
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"How do you compose?" That is the most commonly asked question I hear.
This blog is a window into my creative process and philosophies as a composer and instrumentalist. At times it may contain music, photos, and poetry as well. May you enjoy, return, and benefit!   My Archives  September 2010 August 2010 July 2010 June 2010 May 2010 April 2010 March 2010 February 2010 January 2010 December 2009 November 2009 October 2009 September 2009 August 2009 July 2009
beyond objectification
intellectual and creative freedom A rose for Zaynab/ and Sufism to the dance The purpose of art Lamentations - when my armor broke away The 5 step focus About the "In adoration of the earth" music How my life review during a near death experience influences my composing My philosophy about intruments especially the trombone "Celestial Light Ringing" In adoration of the earth Dreams of the White Horse About the music currently on the home page composing as swimming through emotions Emotional vitality through musical medicine learned by giving birth Oboe Suite Inspiration June 2009 May 2009 April 2009 March 2009 February 2009 |
When I experienced a life review, I relived in timeless glimpses, moments in my life. I ask myself, "What do these moments have in commom?"
In all the moments I am in the moment - not worrying about tomorrow, or fretting about the past. I was experiencing full and joyful gratitude for the moment that I was living. Truly living. I was riveted to the detail, beauty and magnificence of the moment. The vibration meaning my emotional state, and mental state where very awake. I was very engaged in life. My most important point I wish to emphasize is that I was fully feeling my heart and not trying to manipulate or edit my thoughts or feelings. I was there, as I was without a civil war going on between heart and head. I wasn't surpressing fear or sorrow by telling myself "happiness is a choice" which has the repressive undercurrent of " you shouldn't be feeling what you are feeling". Every feeling is a gift. Emotions are like weather. Sunny days, rainy days, are necessary. Light dark... . So the question now is, how do we get in our way of living fully? I think that's what some organized thought systems like religion and govenment try to grapple with to some extent sometimes. Personally I do not fully subscribe to any one religious or political view, or philosophical view, but I do feel quite fondly of the poetry of Rumi and I LOVE to meditate. In fact being in what I call active meditative states was how I usually was during the moments of life review. Hmm, maybe I should write a book on my personal form of meditation! This lesson inspires me to be equally present mentally and emotionally within the magnificence and beauty of sound within each moment while composing. Composing and performing within an active alive meditative state as I understand it. I have the habit of teaching that way, and starting music lessons - usually with most not all students - with meditation. I aspire to keep creating sonic worlds which embrace depth of feeling and mental clarity, fortitude with an open mind which inspires people to commune with life in a state of emotional fullness open heartedly. So, i aspire to compose more active meditations. It's freeing. To be grateful for ones feelings in the moment isn't to overlook "unpleasant feelings" it is to embrace what one is truly feeling from an emotional state, not the contrived state of emotions from thinking. From my perspective, happiness is NOT a choice! It is one of many emotional states. A posivitive attitude or a grateful for what emotion you truly have attitude which in turn influences one's emotional health is a choice, as the mind/emotional connection is a constant dance. Musically Yours, Kathryn Musically |
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